I've sat down to blog several times this week. But each time I tried I just couldn't. My heart and my mind was occupied by the events and tragedy in Tucson,Arizona. I would sit in front of my computer and just stare. I would walk away and watch the news and wander aimlessly around the house. I'm sure I've asked all the same questions all of you have asked, questions that have no answers. What can I do in my own little world to change things. All I can do is my best. My best at my life with J, my best with my family, my best at my job, my best with my friends and my best with the human race. I don't want to lecture-that's not my thing and I don't want to tell anyone how to live their life. All I know is that I have to strive to be human and caring and not take life for granted . All I know is that I have to strive to be courteous, loving, peaceful and respectful of each and every person I encounter. That's all.
I've noticed I've sought comfort food this week-mac and cheese, egg sandwiches, waffles, grilled cheese and tomato soup,cottage cheese and bow tie noodles. Foods that always made me feel better when my heart was broken or the world seemed a little too much . The world has seemed more than a little too much this week. When I started to make these cupcakes for my Martha Stewart Cupcake Club, they just seemed too festive, too joyful,and I set them aside.
But every time I opened the refrigerator they were in there reminding me that life goes on . So I took them out tonight and made the pastry creme filling and put the sweet cherries in the center and topped them with chocolate ganache. And I remembered that life can be whatever we make it and tonight I will bring a little sweetness into my world and pray for all of those who have much sadness in their world.